At the rate I’m going right now, I will max out my credit card before Allie gets here I think I spent around $300 yesterday alone on sex supplies. Let me tell you, it gets expensive trying to find outfits for two models. But what’s a tgirl to do? Curious about what I’ve got in the works? Well I can’t make any promises as some of this will depend on the condition of my bank account at the end of the month . . . but here’s my combination shopping list / wish list. I’m not telling what I might have already bought, as I have some surprises for Allie in mind , but I will definitely let you know how the photos go

Oh, and if you want to make a donation to help with my tgirl “X”mas shopping, sign up for a membership to my site, or I also happily accept PayPal donations. (EDIT 12/17/09: I did happily accept PayPal donations . . . until they decided to close my account for violating their terms of use. Funny, I checked those terms of use very carefully before posting this and did not see any problems . . . so guess you will just have to join my site).

- Feeldoe double dildo for Allie to fuck my poor little crossdresser ass with
- Birdlocked chastity device for Allie to lock my sissy cock in while she enjoys my ass
- Leather harness for Allie to wear while she dominates me
- Wolford thigh highs to compliment Allie’s new leather harness
- Black lace garter belt to hold up Allie’s thigh highs
- Matching panties from Victoria Secret – wouldn’t that be adorable?
- Thigh-high leather boots to complete the dominatrix outfit
- Violet and black teddy from Victoria Secret – sooooo sexy, though I’m not sure who will end up wearing it
- Sissy maid outfit from BirchPlace Shop . . . what better outfit to get sissified in?
- Large blue ball gag so I can keep Allie quiet when I switch roles on her (shhhhh ). Too perfect since I know how much she likes sucking on my blue balls!
- Hitachi Magic Wand for me to use on Allie while she’s tied up with her mouth full of the ball gag. She’s really going to be in trouble!
- Short sweater dress for Allie to wear with her wool tights and fuzzy boots for a nice winter photoset (maybe even in the snow if we get any)
- Inflatable butt plug – don’t ask, it was her idea
- Cucumbers
- Strawberries
- Matching t-strap mary janes – I found a pair that would be perfect for a schoolgirl set
- Patterned pantyhose – way hot and very in style this year, there are so many patterns I want to get!
- Cock rings – I’m still searching for the perfect one . . .

But I also have a collection of classic nylon pantyhose, the kind you buy in a department store, handle with exquisite care, and wrap carefully back up in their original package for storage. In fact, I have a collection of over 100 pairs of real vintage nylons too that are 30+ years old. So I wanted an appropriate way to keep them organized

If you happen to have this same problem storing pantyhose, here are the scale plans for an awesome hosiery storage box:

The outer box that I used is a plastic Sterilite container – one of the 41Qt low profile ones. So print out the plans, scale them up if you want, or just use the measurements. The three “dividers” are just 1/4″ plywood sheets, and the crossbar is a 1″ x 2″ pine board. Cut three 1/2″ deep slots in the crossbar, each just wider than a plywood sheet, this will hold everything straight. And put a #8 wood screw through the crossbar and into each divider. That’s it, all done!

Here’s a photo of mine, full of pantyhose I took out one “cube” of pantyhose so you can see the structure of the rack part.

Here you can see the plywood dividers, with the 1″ x 2″ pine crossbar. You can also see how the divider fits in the slot in the crossbar. And it only takes one screw per divider, since the slot keeps everything from wobbling. A little dot of woodglue before screwing together will also help.

And check out how nice all my pantyhose look organized in my new box! Hope this turns out to be useful for you too.

Climbing mountains isn’t all fun and games though – this was the first time I had ever been above 10,000 feet elevation. And let me tell you, at that altitude, just walking is hard work Plus the storms that roll in at 2pm every day are downright scary. The pic to the left <= was taken at the top of a ridgeline that we reached a little later than we had intended (right about 2:00). I really wanted to see the abandoned mine at the top (the rails are pretty cool dropping off the end of the world there, yes?), but when I turned around and saw the storm we were going to have to walk back through to get off the ridge, I definitely started wondering if it had been a good idea. We had to go all the way back over that mountain that the cloud is sitting on top of to reach shelter, and about the time I snapped that pic we started seeing lightning and hail.

Of course, it’s also cold at 14k feet in the air, even in July. So we also had to deal with snowfields, which I totally was not expecting. Crossing a few of these was pretty scary – there was a several hundred foot drop down a ~60 deg incline of snow, and then lots of rocks on this one => But the cool part was having a snowball fight (in July) on top of a mountain Really can’t put a price on that, hehe.

Ok, and then there was the mountain goat. Apparently these crazy things are really rare, but we saw one just chilling next to the path. Looks like he was trying out for The Sound of Music or something, and everyone on the trail had to stop and take a photo. Actually, I was starting to wonder if the goat was just standing there to see how many hikers he could get to crawl out too far on the ridge and fall off! All right, all right, I took a pic too, I couldn’t help it!

Ok, so on to San Francisco. I can’t believe I had to leave Colorado for my company to fly me to California for a week, isn’t that just terrible And San Francisco of all places, how could you send a poor little tgirl like myself somewhere like that! Actually, it’s quite cold in San Francisco this time of year . . . but that didn’t keep me from having a little fun Oh don’t worry, I have pics of that too, but I will have to share them with you later.

So while my company was putting me up in a nice hotel in Cali, I took some time to set up a photo shoot with another crossdresser that I met through my site. She’s starting up a paysite of her own and was in need of an extra crossdressing model . . . so I happily obliged. Renee hooked me up with Kade, another crossdresser (San Francisco is just crawling with tgirls!!) to do a shoot together while Renee and her wife (not a crossdresser, but a gg is still nice from time to time ) took care of the photography and videography.

You all know how much I like to show my panties for the camera, but damn it was even better with two people watching my play with my cock through my pantyhose! And having another crossdresser reach under my skirt to grab my ass at the same time just put me over the top. Well, not before I made sure Kade spurted cum all over his dress and licked it off my fingers . . . but you know. Eventually I dribbled a big thick load all over my panties with Kade’s help

I’m such a tease, aren’t I? Ok, I will post a pic as soon as I get them back from Renee. Just for you

Of course the most obvious homemade device is just a piece of rope (at right :=>: ) but if you tie the rope correctly, it can be both beautiful and effective! I love the purple silk bondage rope I found for tying my cock good and tight. This is actually about the most effective device I’ve ever found for preventing 1) an erection, 2) urination, 3) ejaculation. Unfortunately with that much rope around my dick, crossdressing can be a bit difficult – there’s no way I can tuck that thing in my panties now!

Even if I don’t have any equipment on hand, I can play CBT with just my own body! Here I am with my balls tucked up inside my abdomen (some people can’t do this, but there is actually an opening in your pelvis where your balls can fit back up inside your body. Neat, huh?) and my cock tucked back between my legs to keep my balls from coming back down. If I line everything up right (like in this pic) it actually looks like I have a pussy! No hole to fuck, but it sure makes the other t-girls jealous! And speaking of tucking, check out how tight I had my cock tucked – my veins were popping out and everything, lol. Trust me, this is definitely worthy of “torture” status, tucking can be brutal

Then getting a little more creative, here are some alternatives to tying up with rope. One of my favorites is tying up my clitty with a pair of pantyhose. It’s very appropriate for the whole crossdressing thing, plus it’s like getting a stocking footjob as I walk around! Good pantyhose (lycra pantyhose in particular) feel great on the cock

Socks work great too, they’re just the right size if you roll down the cuff to the heel. I’ve actually got on a couple pairs of pantyhose (on my clitty) underneath 3 or 4 socks here. Sometimes I do this before looking at porn, and hard as I try I can’t feel *anything* through all those socks. It’s so frustrating!

Socks can get more elaborate too. Here I’ve added some rope over my lace anklet to make sure I can’t get my cock back out. Plus it has the other benefits of rope CBT. I’m in for a long night in this pic! The crisscross pattern works great to keep my balls tight and makes sure my dick can’t grow out from my balls – if I start to get hard like this, it tightens up on my balls and pretty soon I’ll be rolling on the floor . . . in a good way of course Sort of the opposite effect here, I’ve wrapped my cock and balls seperately (over a cute pink sock of course!), pulling my balls down and stretching them out. Now I can play with my little package like it’s a marionette.

Ok, all that’s not to imply that I don’t like manufactured toys. In fact, here’s a great use for some of those rubber cock rings that are normally too loose to feel like anything – they hold socks in place! Actually, with a couple layers underneath them, these things can actually start to feel tight . . . And these metal rings work too. Actually, I have to admit I didn’t buy these from a sex toy shop, though sex toy shops do sell them. They are much cheaper to pick up at the hardware store though In this pic, the first segment is actually my cock head (trying its damnedest to swell up ), the second segment is the rest of my cock, the third segment contains my balls (how did they end up all the way out there??), and the fourth segment is all the extra sock and pantyhose material wrapped up at the base of my cock and balls.

Here are a few other ideas for those metal rings, speaking of which. Actually, these suckers can be pretty tight all on their lonesome! The hardware sizes aren’t perfect, but I find the 2″ rings will (barely!) fit over my cock and balls together, and the 1″ rings work nicely just behind the head of my penis. They can be pretty dangerous if I push them back any further . . . but it’s fun to see how many rings I can fit on, and the weight of them adds a nice effect too Here was actually an attempt to make my own gates of hell out of metal rings after I found the store-bought gates of hell to be pretty ineffective. This is all tied together with a pair of socks. Unfortunately it didn’t end up working very well either, though it looked kind of neat!

Another device that can be fun in combination with the metal cock rings is a nice penis pump. Actually, the penis pump can be pretty fun (and painful!) by itself, but I think the cock rings really add to the effect. If you try this at home, be really careful though! Especially if you try the “extreme” version with both cock and balls inside the pump Well of course I tried it It’s quite an experience too! But seriously, it’s also a good way to get a ring stuck and get a blood clot which can cause permanent damage to your penis Kind of like Viagra in that respect.

Anyway, you can tell what kind of effect the penis pump has on my cock, check out the photo below that I took right after some thorough pumping of both my cock and balls from the above photos. I’m actually not even hard in that photo, hehe. It is a temporary effect though, pumping won’t actually make your cock permanently bigger. It does make it full and super sensitive temporarily though

And last (but certainly not least!) is the ever popular chastity device. These things are custom made by Extreme Restraints and are one of the most effective store-bought CBT devices I’ve ever found. It’s *way* too small to get an erection in, and the curvature really keeps things in check. The padlock is a nice touch too. I did once manage to cum with this thing on though (I think I have it on video somewhere, I was pretty impressed with myself ). You can get spikes for it, but I can’t use them – I get hard so much and so uncontrollably I actually drew blood using them . . . and that’s where I draw the line between pain and pleasure! Anyway, using pantyhose under the chastity device really cuts down on my ability to get off while it’s on, so I’m sticking to that for now

Ok, so I went to this nearby park, and I had looked at Google’s satellite image to figure out a good access point and an area where I could duck into the woods off the trail. I packed all my stuff in a backpack – clothes, makeup, cameras, a mirror, makeup remover, everything. But when I got to the park there were people everywhere! Enough people that they had paved the entire 7 mile trail. Stupid county parks in urban counties

Well I had to figure something out, I’d already packed all my crossdressing gear and spent about 2 hours looking for a spot to jump off the trail at this park So I decided to drive out to my hometown (about 30 min away) and head to the park I used to go to as a kid.

Maybe the significance of this isn’t clear yet. When I was in highschool, I used to walk up to this park from my parents’ house every day during the summers. I know those woods like the back of my hand – including the “safe” areas off the trails. I started taking my crossdressing seriously in highschool, and I had also gotten into Wicca . . . so I found myself a nice little grove of honeysuckle at the top of a hill where no one ever wandered, and I built myself an alter out of rocks I drug up from the nearby creek (I know, I was a weird kid ), and I left the inside of the alter hollow so I could store my crossdressing supplies up in the woods. It seemed ok, as Wicca is pretty open to the idea of sex magic and ritualized sex.

I used to consider the honeysuckle circle sacred ground, and I would frequent it to cast spells. I still dressed up at home when my parents weren’t home, so crossdressing in the park was all about the sex magic. For as long as I can remember, I’ve had dreams about undergoing magical sex changes and turning into a real girl for a night. All of the dreams involved putting on distinctly feminine clothes in a particular order, and pantyhose were always key to the process. So crossdressing in the park was where I lived out these dreams. I would dress up in these special clothes I kept in ziplock bags under my alter, and I would become a real girl for a few moments. I stole a Barbie doll from my sister, along with an outfit that I felt embodied the girl I wanted to be – I distinctly remember purple pantyhose, white boots, and a short skirt – and kept the doll in the alter with my clothes. :bubbles:

I set Barbie on the alter when I would cast a spell asking the spirits to make me a real girl permanently. So I would kneel there carefully dressed in my transformation clothes, concentrating on the Barbie doll in front of me, and jerk off until I left a big load of cum on Barbie’s lap. Apparently I was also a dirty little kid.

Alright, back to today. I returned to the park for the first time in . . . about 10 years. Very little had changed. I recognized all my old landmarks, and found the little trail up to my safe area. Amazingly after 10 years, the little pile of rocks I used to call my alter was still more or less intact, standing in the middle of a now mostly dead circle of honeysuckle. I moved off to one side of the grove for the photoshoot. It felt great to be back. Midway through the shoot I actually found a little piece of lacey purple elastic. I pulled it out of the dirt, and realized it was the waist and leg bands of the panties I used to wear for my rituals. That’s all that was left of the clothes I kept up in the woods (at least that I found), but it was still pretty amazing to see. I really wonder where the Barbie went . . .

OK, that was a pretty crazy story to tell you about my photoshoot today. But it really touched me to go back there, and I felt so at home in a way I haven’t in a very long time. Anyway, the shoot went great and I got some really cool photos. And I left with an annual pass to the park, so I suspect I will be visiting there more often

First, the term “crossdresser”. A US crossdresser is probably a UK transvestite. And a US transvestite is probably a UK crossdresser. If that’s confusing . . . a guy who is serious about looking, feeling, and/or acting like a girl would probably be called a crossdresser in the US and a transvestite in the UK. A guy who just likes wearing panties or who identifies as male even when dressed would usually be referred to as a transvestite in the US and a crossdresser in the UK. Crazy, right?

Ok, next up is pantyhose. The British are very refined in their hosiery terminology. “Nylons” are literally made of nylon and usually refer to thigh high hosiery that do not stay up on their own. “Nylons” and “stockings” require “suspenders” (“garters” in the US) to stay up. “Stay-ups” on the other hand, also known as “hold-ups”, are what we typically think of in the US as “thigh-highs” – they have built in silicone or rubber strips, dots, etc at the top so they stay up. In the US “stockings” would usually refer to long knit socks. The terms “tights” and “pantyhose” are not very popular in the UK, but “tights” are usually sheer hosiery whereas in the US they are thick or opaque (equivalent to the UK “leggings”).

Then there’s “arse”, which in the US is “ass”, and refers to one of my favorite parts of my body But interestingly, the US “ass” used in reference to a donkey is also “ass” in the UK.

And “boob” which in the UK refers to a mistake, but in the US is slang for breast. Thus the slang “boob tube” referring to a TV in the US. Oddly, “boob tube” in the UK refers to a “tube top” or strapless shirt even though the British don’t use “boob” to refer to breasts . . . go figure

“Court shoe” in the UK is a woman’s dress shoe equivalent to the US “pump” . . . though in the US a “court shoe” would probably refer to an athletic shoe.

“Fanny” in the UK is a mild slang term for vagina, but in the US it’s a mild slang term for the butt. Now that could get awkward

“Hooker” in the US is a prostitute, but in the UK it’s a rugby player. Be careful, that one could get you in real trouble.

“Horny” in the US means desperate for sex, but in the UK it means sexually attractive.

“Jumper” means sweater in the UK, but refers to a dress traditionally worn by schoolgirls in the US. And knickers in the UK are panties, not pants as in the US.

Hope you enjoyed those, I sure did. And maybe some of them will even help keep you out of trouble

Sure, a good pair of thigh highs feel great on your legs, but every tgirl knows that they also feel great in more intimate places! Ok, to be fair, I would be happy to wear pantyhose on my entire body (recall my zentai pic?), but I think most crossdressers would at least agree that stockings feel pretty wonderful against your cock. And they look pretty snazzy like that too

Anyway, I posted this photoset to The Crossdresser .com last week and am posting the video to the set as I type. And it just reminded me of how much I enjoyed this shoot – not only because of the really amazing thigh highs and how great they looked with my new sandals (another pic in this earlier post), but also because I got to play with a new toy!

Yup, new toy. I know you can’t see it in the above pic, but I actually had the Aneros male G-spot massager in me at the time. So here’s my honest review of the toy. First and foremost, it feels good. You can definitely tell by my face in the video as I slipped this thing in that I was enjoying it, and though I didn’t realize it at the time you can also see my cock twitching every time it shifted a little inside. I have to admit, however, that it did not quite live up to the hype that I read about it. The Aneros gives a very subtle and gentle pressure against the prostate, and while it feels nice, it certainly is not going to cause an orgasm by itself, let alone a super-amazing orgasm as advertised. Also the arm that is supposed to rub your perineum is rather narrow, so it slips around a good bit (meaning it doesn’t provide pressure where you really want it usually) and after a bit starts to dig into the skin and become uncomfortable.

Bottom line on the Aneros, it’s a good start and un-intimidating for those new to anal play, but it doesn’t work miracles. Aneros does have some newer versions of the toy out, and a few other companies have recently released similar toys (Aneros was the first patented and medically researched prostate massager, so not sure if the others are “knock-offs” or actual improvements). So I haven’t given up hope on finding a super-amazing prostate orgasm, but personally I think it’s going to require a different toy for me.

So I  got out a big bottle of lotion and started rubbing it in to my pantyhose-clad legs. And by the time I was finished, I had lotion everywhere – I looked like I’d gone swimming in it Of course being all slippery and lubed up like that, it would have been a shame not to take advantage of it. So I pulled my cock out of my panties and started rubbing it on my messy pantyhose. I love the feel of pantyhose on my dick, I’m not sure how girls don’t just orgasm all day long walking around in them. But the lotion made it feel even better, and it wasn’t long before I was adding my own special cream to the mess.

Lucky for me, I caught my cum in my purple sandal, so I got to play with it on my toes for a bit. I don’t have any other purple shoes though, so I had to wear my cum filled sandal around the rest of the day . . . not that I really minded feeling the thick mixture of lotion and cum squishing around on the sole of my foot as I walked

This is a pic of my pantyhose closet. Yes, that’s right, I have an entire closet dedicated to pantyhose. It’s a shame you can’t see more detail, because there are several hundred pairs stuffed in that closet, organized by type and color.

I have a hanger of “regular” pantyhose, you know, the boring kind that I like to wear daily so I don’t damage my good ones. Not saying they’re crappy pantyhose, I don’t own crappy pantyhose. Just that there’s nothing special about that hanger.

Then I’ve got a hanger of special pantyhose, stuff that’s hard to find or expensive, like neon green fishnets or super-duper shaping pantyhose.

There’s another hanger dedicated to 100% nylon thigh highs, you know the old-fashioned type that are super sheer. And another hanger for non-traditional thigh highs like my 100″ long cotton socks and my fuzzy velvet ones.

Then there’s the footless tight hanger. I’m sure you can’t guess what’s on that one! Normally I prefer footed tights, but there’s some really crazy patterns and colors that they’re making in footless tights that you just can’t get anywhere else . . . so I started a small collection.

Next are “regular” tights – just colored and opaque. Then come textured tights, like ribbed or cabled. And then unique tights like the pair with a flame print, or the pair with irridescant blue threads.

And then there’s the box of pantyhose that I haven’t opened yet . . . I got this amazing deal on Ebay for a whole collection of pantyhose. Must have been a store going out of business or something, but it was 100 pairs, and it’s going to be awhile before I actually work my way through all of them!