You know, I’m all about being a dirty messy gurl, but not when I’m doing my makeup! Victoria Secret Beauty Rush eyeshadow looked like a great idea in the store, but the stuff is nearly impossible to use. To be fair, the colors are even better than the pic shows with some bright sparkles that make the color almost glow (VS calls it “luminous”, which I think has become a total cliche term in the beauty industry lately). But this eyeshadow has the consistency of talc powder and falls off the funny little brush.

And speaking of the brush, it’s attached to the cap, kind of like a nail polish brush, and is at a terrible angle for application. I always expected to get carpal tunnel syndrome from my computer, but not my eyeshadow! This is another part that seems great in the store – it has a really interesting feel, like a firm sponge brush, and gives the impression of having great control and precision – but just try to stick that thing on your eyelid without hitting your nose or brow or something else . . . and all the while little trickles of powder are going everywhere.

Anyway, if you do manage to hit your eyelid with the makeup, it leaves this great intense streak of color that is fairly workable and blendable . . . except that the tip of the brush does not hold much makeup, possibly due to half of it being on the floor . . . and you end up with a big splotch that quickly tapers off to nothing before you can get halfway across your lid.

So overall, if you can handle the frustrations of using this eyeshadow, you can get some very colorful eyes. But I *definitely* don’t recommend it for crossdressing, since most of us aren’t exactly masters of makeup, and this will only make your life even more difficult. Not that I’m throwing the stuff out, but it did prompt me to go buy some really good makeup to use as a base – I think the Beauty Rush stuff will be relegated to only highlights and shadows.

I’ve gotten so many requests recently for sets . . . you’d think I was the only crossdresser in the world doing porn! Not that I’m really complaining – I love getting requests, I really do It’s just hard to keep up with everything, and I always feel bad when I get a photo request and the requester provided a broken email address. Because then I can’t even let them know that I got their request and am working on it, but it might be a few weeks before I can get it posted.

That’s probably silly of me, I mean who really expects a porn model to send back a personal note when they submit a request for a set? Most people probably assume it ends up in some unread pile of junk mail, but send it in just in case. Which is why I respond to everyone – so they know I at least read their mail and am trying to make their fantasies come true.

Alright, alright, maybe that makes me weird too – I really get off knowing that I’m making someone’s fantasy come true. (yes, seriously! don’t you wish all porn models felt that way?) Well whatever, like it or not, it’s true So just to let you know how serious I am, here are the recent requests I have that I will be completing in the next few weeks. I’ve yet to get a request that I didn’t try to fulfill, how’s that for dedicated?

- I saw a set where you were in a jazz theme with a trumpet. I like the blues theme and would like to see you do another set like this one with you busting a nut in your mouth. Please then clean off your face by peeing in your mouth!

- Would you please do a set where you are dressed like a band geek in pantyhose and teach us how to masturbate and cum in our faces!

- Please do a set where you are crossdressing in the goth style and end with jackin in your face. Please with an olive on top!

- Really like your site and can see why there would be much interest. Was wondering if you would ever consider doing a cumsicle set?

- I would like to request a set where you are wearing pantyhose. I would love you see you pump your self with the penis pump and use your blue friend and end with a self facial where you play with the cum in your mouth and talk nasty. I love your site and seeing the previous sf vid and all the cumeating pics really did it for me.

So . . . that’s what you can expect from me in the near future, because it will take me awhile to get all those requests filled

Everybody knows that Thailand is exceptionally tolerant when it comes to transgender issues, but I found this surprising even for Thailand! Apparently a rural Thai school installed transsexual restrooms, appropriately located between the girl’s bathroom and the boy’s bathroom. They are complete with a rather disturbing-looking icon – it appears they took the left half of the standard “men’s bathroom” symbol and the right half of the standard “women’s bathroom” symbol and joined them at the middle Crazy. Couldn’t they have just given the male icon long hair or something? These are, after all, school-aged kids who aren’t old enough to actually have sex reassignment surgery and who are still required to wear their birth-gender appropriate uniforms.

This whole story reminds me of the Southpark episode where Gerald Broflovski undergoes dolphinoplasty and has to ask “excuse me, where are the dolphin restrooms?” Incidentally, that was Episode 126 entitled Mr. Garrison’s Fancy New Vagina. Which would be another fine topic for my blog

Well, it’s always been a question that has intrigued biologists and sociologists alike. What makes people gay or bisexual, and is it unique to humans?

It appears that at least part of the question has finally been answered. Scientists have found bisexual relationships in numerous other species, reports Scientific American. Apparently there are reports of over 1500 species engaging in homosexual acts, though none of them appear to be strictly gay relationships – rather it seems that animals just have sex with whoever is available.

Maybe this means I’m not so strange in considering myself pansexual after all. I just have sex with whoever or whatever is available! Scientists report that male animals in situations where there is a lack of females are likely to couple with eachother. And subordinate males and females of several species will offer sexual acts to the dominant same-sex individual in their group in exchange for protection. I always knew there was a biological explanation for this

It’s a great article if you’re scientifically inclined (with the awesome title of “Bisexual Species: Unorthodox Sex in the Animal Kingdom” to boot!). If not, there’s still something about gay penguins cuddling that just makes me feel good

Yikes, it’s been awhile since my last post! I hope you’ll forgive me for going hiking in beautiful Colorado and climbing 14k foot mountains . . . I only did it to keep my ass and calves in shape for you! And don’t worry, I wasn’t enjoying gorgeous sunsets like this one the whole time I was gone. I also had to spend a week in San Francisco for my day job, hehe. But more on that later. For now, I need to rub in the spectacular views of the rocky mountains a little more

Climbing mountains isn’t all fun and games though – this was the first time I had ever been above 10,000 feet elevation. And let me tell you, at that altitude, just walking is hard work Plus the storms that roll in at 2pm every day are downright scary. The pic to the left <= was taken at the top of a ridgeline that we reached a little later than we had intended (right about 2:00). I really wanted to see the abandoned mine at the top (the rails are pretty cool dropping off the end of the world there, yes?), but when I turned around and saw the storm we were going to have to walk back through to get off the ridge, I definitely started wondering if it had been a good idea. We had to go all the way back over that mountain that the cloud is sitting on top of to reach shelter, and about the time I snapped that pic we started seeing lightning and hail.

Of course, it’s also cold at 14k feet in the air, even in July. So we also had to deal with snowfields, which I totally was not expecting. Crossing a few of these was pretty scary – there was a several hundred foot drop down a ~60 deg incline of snow, and then lots of rocks on this one => But the cool part was having a snowball fight (in July) on top of a mountain Really can’t put a price on that, hehe.

Ok, and then there was the mountain goat. Apparently these crazy things are really rare, but we saw one just chilling next to the path. Looks like he was trying out for The Sound of Music or something, and everyone on the trail had to stop and take a photo. Actually, I was starting to wonder if the goat was just standing there to see how many hikers he could get to crawl out too far on the ridge and fall off! All right, all right, I took a pic too, I couldn’t help it!

Ok, so on to San Francisco. I can’t believe I had to leave Colorado for my company to fly me to California for a week, isn’t that just terrible And San Francisco of all places, how could you send a poor little tgirl like myself somewhere like that! Actually, it’s quite cold in San Francisco this time of year . . . but that didn’t keep me from having a little fun Oh don’t worry, I have pics of that too, but I will have to share them with you later.

So while my company was putting me up in a nice hotel in Cali, I took some time to set up a photo shoot with another crossdresser that I met through my site. She’s starting up a paysite of her own and was in need of an extra crossdressing model . . . so I happily obliged. Renee hooked me up with Kade, another crossdresser (San Francisco is just crawling with tgirls!!) to do a shoot together while Renee and her wife (not a crossdresser, but a gg is still nice from time to time ) took care of the photography and videography.

You all know how much I like to show my panties for the camera, but damn it was even better with two people watching my play with my cock through my pantyhose! And having another crossdresser reach under my skirt to grab my ass at the same time just put me over the top. Well, not before I made sure Kade spurted cum all over his dress and licked it off my fingers . . . but you know. Eventually I dribbled a big thick load all over my panties with Kade’s help

I’m such a tease, aren’t I? Ok, I will post a pic as soon as I get them back from Renee. Just for you

Ok, time for another important t-girl topic, and another rant about hair removal. Ok, ok, maybe I’ll leave out the rant part!

I’m sure you all know how much I hate shaving and hair removal. And if not, see my other hair removal posts So laser seems like a quite viable option for me. But I don’t want to explain to a clinic why I want all my hair removed, so I’d like to do it at home. Sounds great, right?

Laser hair removal has been around for a little while now, but it’s only been available at doctors offices and spas to be used by “trained” professionals. I know everyone’s afraid of lasers, and sure if it’s capable of burning away your hair it’s likely to be capable of burning your skin too if used wrong . . . but the real limitation has been in the equipment. I mean seriously, would you pay $100,000 to lug one of these things around your house? I would imagine programming this aesthetic laser would be about as friendly as programming a VCR too!

Anyway, when it comes down to it, lasers are just light. Concentrated light to be sure, but just light. And just like a black shirt gets hot if you go out in the sun (relative to a white shirt), dark hair absorbs laser light faster than the surrounding (lighter) skin. If you do it right, you literally burn up the hair without your skin getting more than a little warm. The tricky part is making sure you use the right wavelength to target the hair (and not skin, freckles, moles, etc, etc), leaving the light on for the right amount of time (enough to burn the hair, but not damage the skin), and not using a laser if the color difference between your hair and skin is too small! But seriously, if you have blond hair, I don’t want to hear about your shaving issues. And if you have dark skin, your hair doesn’t show up as much. It’s those of us tgirls with really pale skin but really thick dark hair who are suffering and could be most effectively treated with laser hair removal! But how do we do it without going to a spa or doctor??

Well there’s this thing, which looks like it was assembled in the 70′s and has been sitting in a warehouse waiting to kill someone ever since . . . Devices like this are not “FDA approved”. And while normally that doesn’t scare me, shelling out $600-$1500 for something that looks like this definitely does scare me. The real reason it’s not FDA approved is because there are no safety cutoffs on it – you could leave it on too long or use it on skin that’s too dark and end up burning yourself. But as a result of not being FDA approved, they can’t technically sell it for use on humans to remove hair . . . so the whole business is a bit shady and as a result I don’t trust it to deliver precisely controlled laser energy and thus am not buying one. (yet)

And here’s the Tria, which is sort of FDA approved? Supposedly they were offering a limited number for direct order in the US this spring, but only if you signed up for their email list and made a purchase over the phone. I did actually sign up and got a phone call, but it went to voicemail and it seems I missed my chance – they are now only available through doctors offices. Talk about a strange marketing strategy . . . You can buy them in the EU with no problem, and they claim they will be opening up internet sales in the US by this fall . . . we will see. It’s $1000, so the thing better work! It only treats a small area at a time, so it will take awhile to do your full body, and you will probably have to do it every 3 months or so (not quite permanent) but it would still be a big improvement over shaving!

There are also a few other companies with late stage FDA testing on laser hair removal devices for the US market (Palomar is working on one as well), but I’ve not heard any marketing or roll-out plans I wonder if any others will actually make it to market anytime soon. I’m going to pick up the first one I can get my hands on conveniently and from the privacy of my own home, and I will let you know how it works.

Thought I’d write about something fun today. So why did I pick CBT? Well because I think torture is fun of course! Actually though . . . I really do enjoy some good cock and ball torture. Somehow it seems to go along with crossdressing very well . . . maybe related to sissification or forced dressing, but I’m not sure. Plus it’s such a creative fetish to have. I mean, there’s always the good ‘ole standbys like the gates of hell to the :<=: left, but really those things don’t do much for me. They’re not very tight (for safety reasons, since a company could probably get sued if you mis-used them and your penis fell off or something ) so I prefer to come up with my own devices.

Of course the most obvious homemade device is just a piece of rope (at right :=>: ) but if you tie the rope correctly, it can be both beautiful and effective! I love the purple silk bondage rope I found for tying my cock good and tight. This is actually about the most effective device I’ve ever found for preventing 1) an erection, 2) urination, 3) ejaculation. Unfortunately with that much rope around my dick, crossdressing can be a bit difficult – there’s no way I can tuck that thing in my panties now!

Even if I don’t have any equipment on hand, I can play CBT with just my own body! Here I am with my balls tucked up inside my abdomen (some people can’t do this, but there is actually an opening in your pelvis where your balls can fit back up inside your body. Neat, huh?) and my cock tucked back between my legs to keep my balls from coming back down. If I line everything up right (like in this pic) it actually looks like I have a pussy! No hole to fuck, but it sure makes the other t-girls jealous! And speaking of tucking, check out how tight I had my cock tucked – my veins were popping out and everything, lol. Trust me, this is definitely worthy of “torture” status, tucking can be brutal

Then getting a little more creative, here are some alternatives to tying up with rope. One of my favorites is tying up my clitty with a pair of pantyhose. It’s very appropriate for the whole crossdressing thing, plus it’s like getting a stocking footjob as I walk around! Good pantyhose (lycra pantyhose in particular) feel great on the cock

Socks work great too, they’re just the right size if you roll down the cuff to the heel. I’ve actually got on a couple pairs of pantyhose (on my clitty) underneath 3 or 4 socks here. Sometimes I do this before looking at porn, and hard as I try I can’t feel *anything* through all those socks. It’s so frustrating!

Socks can get more elaborate too. Here I’ve added some rope over my lace anklet to make sure I can’t get my cock back out. Plus it has the other benefits of rope CBT. I’m in for a long night in this pic! The crisscross pattern works great to keep my balls tight and makes sure my dick can’t grow out from my balls – if I start to get hard like this, it tightens up on my balls and pretty soon I’ll be rolling on the floor . . . in a good way of course Sort of the opposite effect here, I’ve wrapped my cock and balls seperately (over a cute pink sock of course!), pulling my balls down and stretching them out. Now I can play with my little package like it’s a marionette.

Ok, all that’s not to imply that I don’t like manufactured toys. In fact, here’s a great use for some of those rubber cock rings that are normally too loose to feel like anything – they hold socks in place! Actually, with a couple layers underneath them, these things can actually start to feel tight . . . And these metal rings work too. Actually, I have to admit I didn’t buy these from a sex toy shop, though sex toy shops do sell them. They are much cheaper to pick up at the hardware store though In this pic, the first segment is actually my cock head (trying its damnedest to swell up ), the second segment is the rest of my cock, the third segment contains my balls (how did they end up all the way out there??), and the fourth segment is all the extra sock and pantyhose material wrapped up at the base of my cock and balls.

Here are a few other ideas for those metal rings, speaking of which. Actually, these suckers can be pretty tight all on their lonesome! The hardware sizes aren’t perfect, but I find the 2″ rings will (barely!) fit over my cock and balls together, and the 1″ rings work nicely just behind the head of my penis. They can be pretty dangerous if I push them back any further . . . but it’s fun to see how many rings I can fit on, and the weight of them adds a nice effect too Here was actually an attempt to make my own gates of hell out of metal rings after I found the store-bought gates of hell to be pretty ineffective. This is all tied together with a pair of socks. Unfortunately it didn’t end up working very well either, though it looked kind of neat!

Another device that can be fun in combination with the metal cock rings is a nice penis pump. Actually, the penis pump can be pretty fun (and painful!) by itself, but I think the cock rings really add to the effect. If you try this at home, be really careful though! Especially if you try the “extreme” version with both cock and balls inside the pump Well of course I tried it It’s quite an experience too! But seriously, it’s also a good way to get a ring stuck and get a blood clot which can cause permanent damage to your penis Kind of like Viagra in that respect.

Anyway, you can tell what kind of effect the penis pump has on my cock, check out the photo below that I took right after some thorough pumping of both my cock and balls from the above photos. I’m actually not even hard in that photo, hehe. It is a temporary effect though, pumping won’t actually make your cock permanently bigger. It does make it full and super sensitive temporarily though

And last (but certainly not least!) is the ever popular chastity device. These things are custom made by Extreme Restraints and are one of the most effective store-bought CBT devices I’ve ever found. It’s *way* too small to get an erection in, and the curvature really keeps things in check. The padlock is a nice touch too. I did once manage to cum with this thing on though (I think I have it on video somewhere, I was pretty impressed with myself ). You can get spikes for it, but I can’t use them – I get hard so much and so uncontrollably I actually drew blood using them . . . and that’s where I draw the line between pain and pleasure! Anyway, using pantyhose under the chastity device really cuts down on my ability to get off while it’s on, so I’m sticking to that for now

I’ve always thought it was pretty erotic to do special request photoshoots for my members, but I never got a ton of requests. One every now and then, and half the time I could never get ahold of the member who made the request in order to get more details . . . So I’m pretty open and vocal about wanting to get member requests on The Crossdresser .com, and I provide plenty of links to feedback forms where members can request custom sets (free of charge I might add!). Anyway, still just a request here or there, not much. Maybe one every 3-4 months if I was lucky.

Well all that changed this week! I had been getting a few more requests recently for specific outfits (pantyhose are pretty popular, imagine that Specific colors have also been a big thing) so I was up to about one every month . . . which was accounting for a good percentage of my updates, and I felt pretty good about it. Then all of a sudden this Monday, I got 5 requests in one day How crazy is that? And they were all very different sets that were requested, so I know it wasn’t just one member spamming me or something.

Anyway, I’m feeling pretty special right about now, and really looking forward to doing these special sets! I get so turned on knowing that I’m making someone’s fantasy come true, I really do love doing requests! I’ve also taken to making special photos for the members that request a set, just a personal “thank you” for inspiring me to be my sexiest. I think the fansigns complete with the members name which are not distributed on the site but only to the requesting member have been a big hit.

So if you want a very personal and private crossdressing picture of me complete with your name and sealed with a lipstick kiss, all you have to do is sign up at The Crossdresser .com and submit a request The membership fee is a small price to pay to make you deepest fantasy come true, don’t you think

What!? Girls and mud don’t go together! I know, I know, but being a crossdresser, sometimes I get my genders mixed up a little Besides I thought the guys might like seeing a girl who doesn’t mind getting dirty. Really dirty

I also thought I’d try out a little movie for you too. Because apparently getting dirty got me all hot and bothered. I was downloading the video to my computer from the shoot, and when it got to the cumshot I was watching and almost didn’t believe it – I was like, “holy crap, there’s no way all that cum came out of my balls!”. So I watched it a couple more times Anyway, you can’t really tell how muddy I was from the video clip I posted, but I figured you would appreciate a nice tgirl cumshot more than seeing my wet muddy pantyhose anyway.

You can tell how wet it was outside though from the puddle my sandal is sitting in – even better shot of the puddle (the rain puddle and the cum puddle ) in this photo. It was pretty fun doing a shoot in the rain. I got all my clothes nice and wet and muddy. Hopefully my members like wet clothes, hehe.

Actually, I’ve got a whole section of pics and videos of me crossdressing in wet clothes, especially wet pantyhose. But for the most part they’re getting wet from the shower or bathtub. And nothing against wearing pantyhose in the shower (actually, I love doing that!), but it was a very different experience being crossdressed in the rain. Anyway, I think I’m going to do some more shoots like this . . . just have to hope for more rainy Saturdays, since that’s the only time I usually have to do shoots!

I thought it might be helpful to start reviewing all the makeup I use, similar to the way I review new sex toys when I use them I know when I walk down the makeup aisle at least, I never know what to pick up. And there’s always someone in the aisle I want to browse who looks at me funny when I stop to peruse the make-up! Well hopefully these new posts will help make it easier for you to cruise down the make-up aisle and grab what you need before anyone can stare

I’m going to start with CoverGirl’s Boundless Color nailpolish line. Because . . . I like it. So there. The label is very simple and unobtrusive (as you can see in the pic), but the polish itself is really vibrant and pearlescent. My pic doesn’t quite do that part justice – it’s very sparkly and has swirls of different color shades. It should jump out at you.

Well, now that you know how to find the stuff when you’re shopping in drab, here’s what I think of this nailpolish for crossdressing. The colors are just as vibrant on your fingernails as they are in the bottle (which is often not the case if you get the wrong polish). This polish is surprisingly thin, however, so it takes a little getting used to. For a beginning crossdresser though, thin is wonderful – it spreads smoothly and evenly, you get a little extra “working time” in case you mess something up, and it will store longer without getting sticky.

The only problem I’ve had with the Boundless Color nailpolish is that the blue polish is SO saturated that it coats a little unevenly. You’ll need two coats to make this color look good (and I assume that goes for any of the darker colors), but don’t worry – the first coat will be nice and thin with no clumps. The second coat goes on easy and just evens out the color. The pink nailpolish is just spectacular and looks great with a single coat

Stay tuned for more makeup reviews in the near future!